Monday, July 21, 2008

numb


"Not all of us have equal talent, but each of us should have an equal opportunity to develop our talents." -JFK

Ive been thinking alot being here at EFY with fish, and i have decided that i am so lucky. Lucky to have the gospel and to have such a great life, blessed with such great people in it. When i look at the world i see one thing: its numb. The blood that once pumped with life through their veins has come to a steady trickle; just enough to keep them alive. their faces are blank and emotionless; often confused with the statues of yesteryear that have been placed and forgotten in various parts of the world. Once they were important; once they had purpose; once they were people. Now they are numb.

I too have been numb at times...the kind where you soak your heart in icy cold water to keep it from feeling more pain, which results in it not feeling any thing. but its really never worth it. Why trade an icy cold life for one that burns with passion, or aches with longing. "is it enough to die? is it enough to breathe? somebody rip my heart out, and leave me here to bleed..."
With my EFy kids this week, i am trying to explore this concept of being numb because i can see it in some of the kids. And there are so many hard things that are happening to kids t hese days, that i want them to be able to feel again! to feel joy and love and grief and pain and LIFE! the moments that ive scraped my kness are so worth it because they get me through to the moments that i felt like i was invincible! or so alive. In musical program the kids get to share their talents and express their feelings through song, and i love it! music is self expression, just like sin is pain. I hope this week i can give them a little more feeling, while giving the equal chance to develop their talents.

2 comments:

Millas said...

Sin also can lead to becoming numb. If we do not strive to keep the spirit with us, we are filled with the sense of belonging somewhere which will eventually lead to becoming numb.
But it is true, sometimes those blank stares that people have remind me of a simpson where Skinner makes all of the kids wear gray uniforms to school, the kids lose the sense of who they are because they lost their sense of freedom y choice.

12345 said...

I agree; I think that an important way avoid the numbness in this world is to make sure that we have the influence of the Spirit in our lives. We find true happiness and enjoyment in life through the activities that invite the presence of the Spririt.