i am the dust underneath your feat, and the laugh in your memory. I am everywhere. In the snow and the leaves. Within each room and in the grass. My tears still lie in the earth next to the bench where i decided to change my life. My imprints are stone in the ground where i have rolled. My shadow walks the pavement at night, glowing in the wind. It is almost always alone. I alone am in these walls of my own that raise too high for me to reach. I want to take a jack hammer to the walls. How much longer God? ive served my time. paid the debts for the words that i have said. for the hearts i have broken. Maybe im not placed there by god, but to punish myself. some days its still hard. No matter what, god is with me.